Keep going, I am with you

Sometimes, when you are seeking God and waiting for your prayers to be answered, it seems like He is not there. C.S. Lewis wrote in "A Grief Observed," which contain his reflections during the time of his wife's death from cancer, "But go to Him when your need is desparate, when all other help is vain and what do you find? A door slammed in your face, and a sound of bolting and double bolting on the inside. After that silence." In the face of grief or adversity it is easy to think that God is not with you. But let me assure you, God is always present. He might not answer your prayers immediately and you might think that He is silent, but He is always there and He is always trying to speak to you. But you have to listen. That's why after many of Jesus' parables, He would say "He who has ears, let him hear."

During this time, God has not answered my prayers. He has, however, kept me going. Every single time when I felt like I was feeling like absolute crap and feelings of despair, hopelessness, etc. started to overcome me He has always nudged me and refreshed my hope. Last Monday, driving on a road called The Great Highway, was one of the times when God nudged me. I was feeling like absolute crap. But as I was driving I looked to my left and there, parallel to my car and going the same speed I was going, was a flock of birds shaped in a forward arrow. Now one thing about the Great Highway is that it is along a beach and it has lights every 100 yards or so. The lights are timed so that if you go the right speed you can always hit the greens without ever having to use your brakes. As the birds were flying next to me, I was going the perfect speed so that each light would turn from red to green when I was less than 10 feet away from it. I never slowed down. I took all of this as a sign from God telling me to keep moving forward. I will be here right next to you. And even when it looks like you can't go on (the light is red), do not worry because I will make a way. Thank you God for being here with me and consistently turning my reds into greens in your perfect timing.