Trust in God

There are so many examples of people in the Bible who have demonstrated such great faith and trust in the Lord. During this time of trial, it is so encouraging to just soak in the Word and read about those people. I had dinner with one of my good brothers in Christ a few days ago, Abe, and he compared my situation with the famous story of Abraham and his son Isaac. Talk about great trust in God. When you trust God fully, you are obedient to Him. He tells you something, you do it. No questions asked. When God told Abraham to go up to Moriah and sacrifice Isaac, he was so obedient that he woke up early the next morning and began his journey with Isaac in preparation to kill him. A lot of people focus mainly on Abraham and his trust and obedience to the Lord, but I think Isaac deserves a lot of credit too, being that he trusted his dad so much that he was willing to die. When Abraham finally reached his destination, he tied up Isaac and killed him. He didn't literally kill him because at the last moment, an angel told Abraham to stop. But Abraham's arm was up with knife in his hand ready to strike and at that moment, Isaac was already dead in his heart.

Sometimes, God calls us to trust Him so much that we would sacrifice those whom we hold closest to our hearts for Him. L is not my child, she is not my wife. She is somebody that I've known only a short period of time but nevertheless she is somebody who I am so deeply in love with. Even though I have so much hope for our future and so much love for her, perhaps God is telling me to trust Him so much that He wants me to get to the point where my arm is up with knife in my hand ready to kill all my dreams with her. When God tests us, He truly tests us. In Abraham's case, he didn't just say kill here. God made him go to a far away location where the sacrifice was to happen. This means that he had a lot of time during his journey to think about it and turn back. Can you imagine the agony he was feeling during that journey? I trust God. I have come to the point where I've accepted my situation. But I think I am still walking in my journey, with pain and agony in my heart, and have yet come to the point where I can pull my knife out and kill my dreams with L. It is at that point where I can truly say that I trust God 100% with all my heart. Perhaps, He is waiting for me to get to that point before He delivers me. We shall see...